Sunday, November 27, 2011

That Something Feeling

I've written before about different mindsets I have at times when I tell Sir, "Yes Sir."  Sometimes, though, there is a feeling I get that I can't quite describe.  One of those times happened this morning when I read Sir's response to my morning email.

Sir gives me rituals to keep my focus on him.  To focus on my submission to him.  One of the rituals is a daily kneeling time.  This morning Sir added elements to my kneeling time.  The bulk of what Sir added is restated below:

"I feel that time is mine, a time when you focus on your submission to me. And I love that you do it blindfolded, collared, with your crotch rope and your ankles and knees tied. And I have decided I want you to give me even more during your kneeling time. Tie your breasts in bondage and insert your butt plug to show how you serve me."

My reaction to reading Sir's email puzzles me.  First, I never even questioned rather or not I would comply with the new requirements.  Something just happens to me when Sirs tells me to do something.  I tell Sir it makes a certain part of my anatomy twitch.  A good twitch.  That's the physical reaction.  But, there is an emotional reaction as well.  And I can't quite define it.  At least define it succinctly.  Something about it feels like bowing.  I have a slight hesitation using such a reverential term describing my submission to Sir.  It also feels like a releasing, like a giving of more.  It is such a feeling of pleasure for Sir to take more, to give Sir more, to feel more owned.

And I just say, "Yes Sir." And there is so much said in those two little words.

Yes Sir.  SSO.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

The Dimensions of Submission

I saw a news program recently about doctors using 5D technology in viewing the body.  The 4th dimension being the heart beating and the lungs breathing.  The 5th dimension is the blood coursing through the veins.

That news clip and something I wrote in a recent post got me thinking about the dimensions of submission.  How many ways are there to view submission?  How do I view it?  How does Sir view it?

I find myself describing my experience with Sir in terms of, what I perceive to be, dimension.  He took me higher...  He made me go farther...  I felt deeper... 

Those seem to describe how I feel emotionally.

And sometimes I seem to describe how I feel physically, or in a space/time perspective.  I am floaty...  I am out of it...  I am somewhere else...

To me, it's an intriguing thought how submission to Sir changes me.  Is it linear?  Am I just progressing along a one-dimensional line?  How many dimensions are there?  Where have I come from?  At point was I in this multi-dimensional experience when I began my submission to Sir.  Where am I at now?  How much more is there to experience?

When I think of it in those terms, I think infinity.  The possibilities of experience seem infinitesimal. 


Escaping the Bounds

I got spanked last night.  Actually, I get spanked every night, but this was special.  Sir wants me to stay focused on him, so every evening I am to spank after dinner and to spank in the shower.  Fifty spanks to each butt cheek, both times. Because the spanking accompanies other things Sir has me do, the only time I don't spank is when I'm on my period.

That started yesterday. But, yesterday was just emotionally hard so I still just wanted to spank.  I did my shower spanking and let Sir know.  Well, hello.  DOM bells go off at that.  Sir was very happy I could still spank while on my period, so I got another spanking with him.  Sir spanked both butt cheeks 96 times - each.

...And sub bells go off at that.  I felt so free floating and deeper in submission at the same time.  How does that happen?  That you can go higher and deeper at the same moment?

I'm always amazed when I realize I've given Sir more.  More of what is still a bit indefinable.  More of me?  More control?  More access?  More submission?  All of know is that Sir could have asked for anything last night and it would have been his.  I was so free of holding onto anything I called mine.

Thank you, Sir.  SSO

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Love Our Lurkers

Hello there.  This is Love Our Lurkers day!  It should be a national holiday. This LOL day was started by Bonnie at My Bottom Smarts to encourage those who mainly lurk the blogs, but not leave comments, to come out of hiding and participate in the community. 

It's fun really.  I'm committing myself to stop being such a lurker and more of an active participant again.

Lurker, lurker,  come out, come out, wherever you are.

Also, if you are new to the blogosphere, visit Bonnie and let her know you are a newbie.  She can introduce you to lots of people!

Celebrate LOL Day!