Tuesday, July 10, 2012

What's the Word I'm Looking For?

Sometimes I wish I had an encyclopedic memory for useful words.  That would come in very handy when I try to explain my emotions.  I'm not great when it comes to explaining how I feel.  I'm not even great at knowing how I feel.

After my rituals at night, I email Sir to tell him I've completed them.  I'm also suppose to tell him how I feel.  I do tell him, but I never feel I've captured my mood or feelings very well.

Especially about kneeling time....

I love kneeling time.  I think I usually tell Sir that kneeling time helps me focus.  Or makes me feel settled.  It goes  far beyond that, though.  And I've not found the words to really describe it.  I thought I was doing well with "settled," but it falls short too.  That in some way sounds passive, but I think kneeling time is active.  Or, proactive...  I actively settle myself into thoughts about Sir.  I can feel it mentally, or emotionally.  Almost physically.

Still, I haven't found the perfect way to describe.

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  1. "I think kneeling time is active. Or, proactive... I actively settle myself into thoughts about Sir. I can feel it mentally, or emotionally. Almost physically."

    I love your description of this. It can be felt on so many levels. The word I feel best describes this feeling for me is "serenity" which is why I choose it as my profile name. Another description I've heard used is grace, as that is also something sort of physical and mental.

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    1. Serenity is a wonderful descriptive. That is the sense the photos I included in the post evoke in me -- serenity.

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  2. I was just thinking about this yesterday and I found these to be most fitting:

    Acquiescent:
    http://www.thefreedictionary.com/acquiescent

    Quiescent:
    http://www.thefreedictionary.com/quiescent

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    1. Those are very fitting descriptions.

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  3. for me that settled, content, focused feeling is a big part of what feeling submissive is for me. lovely

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    1. Yes. It is when I feel the most "right." Like I'm right where I belong.

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  4. Great post, I have been thinking about this myself recently and have not been able to adequately describe it either.

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    1. One word, I'm sure, can't encapsulate the feeling. Maybe it isn't the word I'm trying to capture. Maybe it's the feeling so I can feel it always.

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    1. Yes. Softer.... That is very good.

      Softer.

      And that makes me think, malleable.

      Thank you for your input.

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  6. Oh gosh im not very good at describing emotions too well, kneeling to me represents a time to reflect on my submission, it makes me feel i dunno more submissive?, its that time to focus on his needs which in turn feeds my needs.

    Thats about the best i can put it lol

    x

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  7. Kneeling makes me feel humble and penitent-I need to do it more. Thanks for the great post!

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    1. Those are good ways to describe kneeling time. Thanks for stopping by!

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  8. Kneeling time is a big part of my submission. Describing it in one word....belonging? His? focused? I could go on...the posts above did a better job than me!
    abby

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    1. I can't describe it in one word either, abby!

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  9. i love to kneel, its part of my rituals, and like you i would love to have words to hand to describe my emotional feelings...smiles.

    blossom x

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    1. I don't why i want a word to describe the feeling. I somehow think if I had a word, I could get where I go during kneeling time at other times as well with just that word.

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  10. Ahhh, i like this. Kneeling ~ just the posture ~ has an amazing power, doesn't it? It's not part of a regular ritual for me, partly because i don't have any rituals ~ :-( ~ but also i've got a knee that bothers me sometimes, so i haven't even been kneeling at all lately. i miss it....

    And i appreciate your search for the right word for it. i like acquiescence.

    aisha

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    1. I hope you are able to have kneeling time again soon. And, yes, I like the word acquiescence too!

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  11. Soft. Female. In love with him in every cell.

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    1. Soft. I love that! Definitely, soft!

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  12. Could it be that you feel peaceful? In harmony with your Sir? For me, when I have my quiet time I feel just that: in harmony with my Master.

    So happy you have something that connects you to yourself and to your Sir.
    ~a

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    1. Peaceful is a very good description of what kneeling time makes me feel.

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