Sometimes I wish I had an encyclopedic memory for useful words. That would come in very handy when I try to explain my emotions. I'm not great when it comes to explaining how I feel. I'm not even great at knowing how I feel.
After my rituals at night, I email Sir to tell him I've completed them. I'm also suppose to tell him how I feel. I do tell him, but I never feel I've captured my mood or feelings very well.
Especially about kneeling time....
I love kneeling time. I think I usually tell Sir that kneeling time helps me focus. Or makes me feel settled. It goes far beyond that, though. And I've not found the words to really describe it. I thought I was doing well with "settled," but it falls short too. That in some way sounds passive, but I think kneeling time is active. Or, proactive... I actively settle myself into thoughts about Sir. I can feel it mentally, or emotionally. Almost physically.
Still, I haven't found the perfect way to describe.