The Beatles - Birthday
Happy Birthday, Sir.
You say it's your birthday
It's my birthday too, yeah
They say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
Yes we're going to a party party
I would like you to dance (Birthday)
Take a cha-cha-cha-chance (Birthday)
I would like you to dance (Birthday)
Dance
I would like you to dance (Birthday)
Take a cha-cha-cha-chance (Birthday)
I would like you to dance (Birthday)
Dance
You say it's your birthday
Well it's my birthday too, yeah
You say it's your birthday
We're gonna have a good time
I'm glad it's your birthday
Happy birthday to you.
"THE BEATLES - BIRTHDAY LYRICS." Lyrics. Web. 20 May 2011. <http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/birthday-lyrics-the-beatles/1a263ecc19f362a048256bc2002104f6>.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Has It Ended Yet?
No? The world didn't end today? Well, I guess that means I'm having a birthday tomorrow after all. That's alright with me.
Tomorrow is my 46th. When the hell did that happen? My normal glass half empty self might be prone to bemoan the fact that I will now be closer to 50 than 40. But, that will have been so for 364 days 23 hours and 59 seconds, won't it?
And on an even better note (although what can be better than the world not ending?), I got carded today. Yep, I bought alcohol and actually got carded. Not bad. Makes being closer to 50 than 40 not be so freakin' bad afterall. I guess that is one benefit of living in a climate where the growing of gills may actually be advantageous.
And to top that note. Yes, it just keeps getting better. Sir sent me to the mall with a new toy. A remote controlled mini-vibe. So I buzzed, quite literally, around the mall for over an hour with the vibe buzzing me the whole time. Ohhhhh yesssssss!
Thank you, Sir. And a happy birthday to me!
Tomorrow is my 46th. When the hell did that happen? My normal glass half empty self might be prone to bemoan the fact that I will now be closer to 50 than 40. But, that will have been so for 364 days 23 hours and 59 seconds, won't it?
And on an even better note (although what can be better than the world not ending?), I got carded today. Yep, I bought alcohol and actually got carded. Not bad. Makes being closer to 50 than 40 not be so freakin' bad afterall. I guess that is one benefit of living in a climate where the growing of gills may actually be advantageous.
And to top that note. Yes, it just keeps getting better. Sir sent me to the mall with a new toy. A remote controlled mini-vibe. So I buzzed, quite literally, around the mall for over an hour with the vibe buzzing me the whole time. Ohhhhh yesssssss!
Thank you, Sir. And a happy birthday to me!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Vanilla Sex Rx
There was a thread on FetLife recently asking male Doms if vanilla sex ever worked/works for them. As usual for FetLife, the responses were varied from along the lines of, "yeah, a break is good every now and then," to "why in the world would I want vanilla sex."
It got me wondering if any of us have ever truly had vanilla sex? I mean if this is who we truly are at our deepest core, then surely it has at least at some level revealed itself sexually all along? Maybe not consciously, but undeniably there nonetheless. If not in actual practice, then as a fantasy escape during vanilla sex to bring the Dominant or submissive aspect into it? Surely a Dom as always wanted to dominate. And, likewise, surely a submissive has always wanted to submit.
I'm not sure that I have EVER had vanilla sex. That's not to say that, until now, I've been submissive in sex. I think quite the opposite can be said for me. Why? Because I've always tried to push a partner into dominating me.
I remember my first real sexual encounter. It was my first inkling that I was different. Or, at least that I did something that this guy was just not expecting to happen. I was 13. He was 19. I know. We had been playing around on his bed. I'm now on my back and he is about to enter me. This is when it happens. I suddenly throw my legs over his shoulders and scream, literally, "FUCK ME, HURT ME, MAKE IT HURT." I will never forget the frozen look of horror on his face. I'm not sure what thoughts went through his mind, but I know he was in shock. I'm really surprised he could finish the deed he was so shocked. And, it wasn't a turn on for him at all. I know this from later talks with him. In fact, he was quite concerned about my emotional well being. That's putting it lightly. He thought I was a little crazy.
You have to understand that at this time, at 13, I had never seen porn, had never looked at a dirty magazine or read a dirty book. It was just there. Already in me.
So if I were to answer the thread in FetLife, I would have to say, "No, it is completely impossible for me to have vanilla sex. It would never work for me."
It got me wondering if any of us have ever truly had vanilla sex? I mean if this is who we truly are at our deepest core, then surely it has at least at some level revealed itself sexually all along? Maybe not consciously, but undeniably there nonetheless. If not in actual practice, then as a fantasy escape during vanilla sex to bring the Dominant or submissive aspect into it? Surely a Dom as always wanted to dominate. And, likewise, surely a submissive has always wanted to submit.
I'm not sure that I have EVER had vanilla sex. That's not to say that, until now, I've been submissive in sex. I think quite the opposite can be said for me. Why? Because I've always tried to push a partner into dominating me.
I remember my first real sexual encounter. It was my first inkling that I was different. Or, at least that I did something that this guy was just not expecting to happen. I was 13. He was 19. I know. We had been playing around on his bed. I'm now on my back and he is about to enter me. This is when it happens. I suddenly throw my legs over his shoulders and scream, literally, "FUCK ME, HURT ME, MAKE IT HURT." I will never forget the frozen look of horror on his face. I'm not sure what thoughts went through his mind, but I know he was in shock. I'm really surprised he could finish the deed he was so shocked. And, it wasn't a turn on for him at all. I know this from later talks with him. In fact, he was quite concerned about my emotional well being. That's putting it lightly. He thought I was a little crazy.
You have to understand that at this time, at 13, I had never seen porn, had never looked at a dirty magazine or read a dirty book. It was just there. Already in me.
So if I were to answer the thread in FetLife, I would have to say, "No, it is completely impossible for me to have vanilla sex. It would never work for me."
Monday, May 16, 2011
Music Monday - May 16
Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you
Oh, and you come crash into me
And I come into you
And I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare-boned and crazy... for you.
Oh, and you come crash into me
Baby, and I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
And if I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl,
Close to me
Oh and you come crash into me, yeah
Baby, and I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
Oh, I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing, but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted,
The way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me, baby
Come crash into me, yeah
Crash into me...
Crash into me...
Crash into me...
You know, I'm the king of the castle,
And you're the dirty rascal, crash into me.
Please crash into me, baby...
Oh, no no no...
Yes,
I see the wave come and crash into me.
I see the wave come and crash into me.
Crash into me.
You've got your ball,
You've got your chainTied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you
Oh, and you come crash into me
And I come into you
And I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare-boned and crazy... for you.
Oh, and you come crash into me
Baby, and I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
And if I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl,
Close to me
Oh and you come crash into me, yeah
Baby, and I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream
Oh, I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing, but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted,
The way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me, baby
Come crash into me, yeah
Crash into me...
Crash into me...
Crash into me...
You know, I'm the king of the castle,
And you're the dirty rascal, crash into me.
Please crash into me, baby...
Oh, no no no...
Yes,
I see the wave come and crash into me.
I see the wave come and crash into me.
Crash into me.
"DAVE MATTHEWS BAND AND DAVE MATTHEWS - CRASH INTO ME LYRICS." Lyrics. Web. 16 May 2011. <http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/crash-into-me-lyrics-dave-matthews-band-and-dave-matthews/558a94a60265645c48256bd1000dbb76>.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Are You Gonna Be My Girl?
I heard a song on the radio this morning that, at first, I thought would be good for Music Monday. Then, as I thought about one particular phrase in the song, I realized I wanted to post my reaction to it. The song (and phrase) is Are You Gonna Be My Girl by Jet.
It made me think of my reaction when Sir calls me his good girl or says things like, "You are mine." I always respond, "Yes sir." These things are usually said during our sessions and I've thought that because I'm in a stupor that it just makes it easier to respond affirmatively to any proclamation Sir wants to make.
But, in the stone cold soberness of a morning drive to work, I hear the unasked question of my Sir. And in that sobriety my response is still, "Yes. I will be your girl." I am well on my way to, in truth, being his good girl.
I feel a bowing in my soul when I think of him. He has taken me. He has made me his. I am his good girl.
Yes. Sir. I will be your girl.
It made me think of my reaction when Sir calls me his good girl or says things like, "You are mine." I always respond, "Yes sir." These things are usually said during our sessions and I've thought that because I'm in a stupor that it just makes it easier to respond affirmatively to any proclamation Sir wants to make.
But, in the stone cold soberness of a morning drive to work, I hear the unasked question of my Sir. And in that sobriety my response is still, "Yes. I will be your girl." I am well on my way to, in truth, being his good girl.
I feel a bowing in my soul when I think of him. He has taken me. He has made me his. I am his good girl.
Yes. Sir. I will be your girl.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Music Monday
California Dreamin' - The Mamas & The Papas
(Just because it was hard to leave paradise)
(Just because it was hard to leave paradise)
all the leaves are brown and the sky is grey I've been for a walk on a winter's day I'd be safe and warm if I was in L.A California Dreamin' on such a winter's day stopped into a church I passed along the way well, I got down on my knees and I pretend to pray you know the preacher likes the cold he knows I'm gonna stay California Dreamin' on such a winter's day all the leaves are brown and the sky is grey I've been for a walk on a winter's day if I didn't tell her I could leave today California Dreamin' on such a winter's day
"California Dreaming Lyrics - California Dreaming." Lyrics. Web. 08 May 2011. <http://www.lyricsbox.com/california-dreaming-lyrics-california-dreaming-4bph65b.html>.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. You all deserve kudos for the job you do.
And to my own mom. You were the most amazing woman EVER. I love and miss you and will think of you everyday until I see you again.
And to my own mom. You were the most amazing woman EVER. I love and miss you and will think of you everyday until I see you again.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Home Again, Home Again. Jiggity Jig.
Well, I am back in Texas. I had a wonderful time in San Diego. It really is, in my opinion, heaven on earth. Just gorgeous. Perfect weather and beautiful scenery. It really would take only the slightest (realistic) nudge and I would be there permanently in a heartbeat. Of course, I always get nudges from my family on the West Coast to move there. It would make more sense, since I am closer to them than the the Texas crew.
Oh well. The trip is over and I'm back to reality.
I did email EdenFantasys and let them know I would like to participate in the toy review program. Should be interesting. We'll see how my writing skills work on that! Hmmmm..... Maybe I should start reading some erotica just to prepare for it. ;-)
I went toy shopping while in San Diego. With my sister and niece, no less. See what I mean? They really are more my kind of people. Oh, I forgot. I'm back to reality. I got some of those supposedly low pain tweezer nipple clamps. Pfft! Not! Maybe I'm too enthusiastic and had them too tight, but tight they were. I didn't wear them too long. Really just tried them on to see how they worked. Oh and they have the little chain that I can pull. That's nice. That's better than the clothespins I've been using. Clothespins don't always stay on when I try to pull them.
And I got a few other toys. I will tell about those later because apparently I'm to start training with them soon.
*Gulps*
And I'm willingly doing this to myself? LOL.
Just wanted to say hello again. I missed my blog family while away.
Oh well. The trip is over and I'm back to reality.
I did email EdenFantasys and let them know I would like to participate in the toy review program. Should be interesting. We'll see how my writing skills work on that! Hmmmm..... Maybe I should start reading some erotica just to prepare for it. ;-)
I went toy shopping while in San Diego. With my sister and niece, no less. See what I mean? They really are more my kind of people. Oh, I forgot. I'm back to reality. I got some of those supposedly low pain tweezer nipple clamps. Pfft! Not! Maybe I'm too enthusiastic and had them too tight, but tight they were. I didn't wear them too long. Really just tried them on to see how they worked. Oh and they have the little chain that I can pull. That's nice. That's better than the clothespins I've been using. Clothespins don't always stay on when I try to pull them.
And I got a few other toys. I will tell about those later because apparently I'm to start training with them soon.
*Gulps*
And I'm willingly doing this to myself? LOL.
Just wanted to say hello again. I missed my blog family while away.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Music Monday
Nine Inch Nails: Closer
(My favorite NIN song)
You let me violate you
You let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you
You let me complicate you
(Help me...)
I broke apart my insides
(Help me...)
I've got no soul to sell
(Help me...)
The only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself,
I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to God
You can have my isolation
You can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith
You can have my everything
(Help me...)
You tear down my reason
(Help me...)
It's your sex I can smell
(Help me...)
You make me perfect
Help me become somebody else
I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to God
Through every forest
Above the trees
Within my stomach
Scraped off my knees
I drink the honey, inside your hive...
You are the reason I stay alive...
(My favorite NIN song)
You let me violate you
You let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you
You let me complicate you
(Help me...)
I broke apart my insides
(Help me...)
I've got no soul to sell
(Help me...)
The only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself,
I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to God
You can have my isolation
You can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith
You can have my everything
(Help me...)
You tear down my reason
(Help me...)
It's your sex I can smell
(Help me...)
You make me perfect
Help me become somebody else
I wanna fuck you like an animal
I wanna feel you from the inside
I wanna fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to God
Through every forest
Above the trees
Within my stomach
Scraped off my knees
I drink the honey, inside your hive...
You are the reason I stay alive...
"NINE INCH NAILS - CLOSER LYRICS." Lyrics. Web. 28 Apr. 2011. <http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/closer-lyrics-nine-inch-nails/63c17f47752ce85748256cc60024516f>.
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