Writing helps me process. When I was standing at the brink of beginning this journey I wrote a post to help me process how I felt about taking that first step in really experiencing this lifestyle. So, here I am again processing these feelings. What is this I'm feeling?
What is this feeling when I wake up in the morning and my first thought is how I will email Sir and let him know how much I want to serve, submit to and obey him.
What is this feeling when Sir puts me to bed and I know his is the last voice I will hear for the night?
What is this feeling when Sir calls me good girl or tells me I've pleased him?
What is this feeling when I hear that distinct notification on my phone letting me know Sir has sent me a message?
What is this feeling when Sir is away and I achingly wait for any type of connection with him?
What is this feeling when Sir puts me on my knees and has me serve him?
What is this feeling when I feel a certain soreness in my body and a smiles emerges on my face as I realize it is a mark Sir has left on me?
What is this feeling when Sir has totally spent me, taken all he can from me, but then tenderly cuddles me and puts me to bed?
What are these feelings?
"What is this feeling when Sir calls me good girl or tells me I've pleased him?"
ReplyDeleteI don't know how to explain how amazing it feels when I hear "Good girl." At first I was appalled at myself, at my submissive nature that practically glowed inside at those words. Now I settle into the warm tingle in my chest when I hear it. I can't explain it to my Husband. I think it would change things if he knew. He might say it more and it wouldn't be genuine, or say it less and I'd feel hurt. And I can't explain it to anyone else! But oh how I love to hear "Good girl." Thanks for this.
Yes, Anon, I can relate to that warm tingle that settles in me when Sir calls me good girl. He can melt me with the words he whispers in my ear.
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Loved your post, poured out.
ReplyDeleteI'd say there is one four letter word for that feeling.
LOVE
Our Master's can make us melt with their very presence, their calming words, and keep us on edge with their torments and teases.
Take care, Sky
Sky - I totally agree. Sir can make me melt with just a few words.
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